April has been kind to me for the most part. I recieved my first write up. I hope that I don't get another one simply because I wouldn't want to fail my Tita like that again. Though it did make me reflect ahrder on the situation I've been in for a long time now. I didn't come to any new conclusion, instead I just made sure to bring myself closer to the cure. I'm leaving this job, I will not let it kill me. I wrote a letter to my boss, and a letter to my Tita. In one I express

I could put all of it behind me. The new week had started. Monday was slow and exhaustive. The conversation from the nights prior still lingered in my brain. I suppressed tears. The day ended mildly and I could start again on Tuesday. AND TUESDAY?? What a day it was. The cousins chat tried to do the trend where you send a picture every hour. It helped the day pass. I did make a vital crucial mistake however. I thought something was less than it was but at the end of the day i

Girl hey! It is an understatement to say I missed you. Writing has been my first passion for a minute now. It is unfortunate that it took me to stop writing for me to realize how much I love it. With that said, it is nice to live life not constantly worrying about what I'm going to say on my little website. Though I do find it difficult to remember the days. My memories fall from my brain like grains of sand between fingers. It isn't an issue for the most part, I would say my

March 13th, 2026 I like to think I'm a good person, I may not be Superman but I can still try to do my fair share of good deeds. Drez was going to Guelph and he asked for a ride to the station. He gave me the option of either Brampton or Sauga and seeing that Tania and I weren't going to be together that afternoon I though it best to go my ends. My ends however hold the bus not the train, and that day of all day's was a fucking snowfall like the middle of winter. The buses ar

I have found all of this year to be moving at a breakneck pace. I can remember having my friends over for New Years, I can remember the small details of a failed romance in January and then I blinked and it's March. My girlfriend and I take turns staying at each other's homes (I've mostly been staying at hers). I can tell you I'm happy! Like a profound happiness that lasts. I don't feel it as I type this because my tummy really hurts and I upset the very Sun that provides me

March 1st - 4th, 2026 - What is this feeling? Life has just become work, gym, girlfriend. I really like her, every free moment I have I spend on her. I uh- I really~ like her. I wanna tell her how I really feel. About how strong my feelings are for her. She told me to sit on them, to let them ruminate. Which was a good idea, I don't feel it yet. I was just feeling it extra that day. Everyone has told me that when you know you know, that it's never too soon. I told myself to w

February 23rd, 2026 Annjelette didn't come in today, I hope she's okay. Work was long but not in an annoying way. Drez and I got to slap each other with tortillas. The gym was short but I felt pretty good about it. I spent the rest of the day writing in my journal. February 24th, 2026 Work was long but fine. The gym was tiring but I could go harder. I picked up my babygirl afterwards and we went to Tahini's. I really like their food. She picked up flowers for my mom after we

February 20th, 2026 // Written on March 2nd, 2026 // I can scarcely remember work. With it being a Friday I can only assume it was busier than we might've anticipated and was more hectic than we'd've liked. I can recall going home to grab some clothes for the weekend and then grabbing juice from Walmart before I drove to my babygirl. We took the shortest of naps, Drez was at our door before I could close my eyes. Tania was dressed as Closet Kim Possible, and I went as Nighwin

February 17th, 2026 I kissed my crush goodbye as I left for work in the morning. This girl is very special to me. This feeling needs to be bottlled so I can have it forever. Work was ugh!! Far too busy, too daunting, too exhausting. The after wasn't so bad. Drez and I went to McDonalds to pick up OVO meals and Anime Uno cards. Drez and my crush talked briefly, she requested Drez relinquish me so she could see me. I've never dropped Drez off so quickly. The 410 was it's usual

February 15th, 2026 I woke up in a bed that wasn’t my own. A beautiful woman upon my arm. I deserve every ounce of happiness I am given, I only pray that she feels the same. We headed downstairs to make breakfast, pancakes!! Something I’m not good at, I tried making a pancake and it came out so bad. She made the rest and I failed to wash the dishes. If these are tests I’m failing; I only hope my teacher is forgiving. We watched Haunting after breakfast and then napped around

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!! My crush invited me over to their place to spend Valentines and the night. The plan was to get there before noon so we could spend plenty of time together. I didn’t want to come empty handed, I’d feel like such a shit partner. I spent the morning making a Valentine’s Day card. I put in as many cutesy little things as I could. Then I even put my own handwriting into my letter. It was barely legible but it was mine. I put in a load of laundry in after th

February 9th, 2026 What a terrible day. It started with such promise. I had all the ammunition in the world to chismis with my coworkers about this girl I have the biggest crush on, what we got up to on the weekend. While that’s how the day began it quickly devolved into bout of crying, sobbing, weeping in the recovery room. I was asked politely to not bring her around the house and in my room. I retaliated not so kindly and I broke my own heart for attacking my mom. I had to

// February 7th, 2026 // The plan was to maximize our time together, (isn’t it always?) unfortunately a crucial misinterpretation of the texts meant at least an hour and a half missed. Rajvir has said his tests ended at 11:30, I was under the guise that they started at that time. Being that I was the days driver, it stood to reason that I was in no rush. Ryan, Martin and I got to UTM jsut before 1 in the afternoon. Raj took us around the school for a minute before we found a

Feb 5th Drez bday celebration Mary browns Cake Help Dimitri with tear down I HAVE A DATE!!! It’s 5:51, February 5th, 2026. I am petrified and a little cold. I have a date in approximately 40 or so minutes. The nerves weren’t on before, but now I’m terrified. I think I should be fine, our conversations have been so easy the past 2/3 weeks. Genuinely I need to be myself because that seems to be what she’s really fucking with. I just need to keep on top of my IRL shit, à la, eye

Written on February 7th, 2026 February 2nd, 2026 I woke up with a strange cough, a haziness in my head and a weakness in my legs. Forcing myself to work I could feel every ounce of strength it took to stay standing. Then we worked late too. This week would be a busy one, it was vital to make sure it went as smooth as possible. Drez and I didn't gym after work, it was too late, we were too tired. He gave me an R&B album for the ride home, Ari Lennox's "Shea Butter Baby". I too