March 11th, 2026 - I'm going to go live life again

I have found all of this year to be moving at a breakneck pace. I can remember having my friends over for New Years, I can remember the small details of a failed romance in January and then I blinked and it's March. My girlfriend and I take turns staying at each other's homes (I've mostly been staying at hers). I can tell you I'm happy! Like a profound happiness that lasts. I don't feel it as I type this because my tummy really hurts and I upset the very Sun that provides me with light, the same light that I see in the moon at night. My sunshine and my moon, I'm sorry.

I've been having a really hard time to carve out my own identity recently. I think I've kind of just become my girlfriend's boyfriend. I don't blame her! I was having a hard time with my hobbies and interests prior to that, and I would rather spend my downtime with her over doomscrolling Instagram. My only regret is a severe lack of... stuff!! Like I feel we haven't done our own lives with the other person there. A la, me taking her shopping, or to the comic store (So shopping), or playing games, or making cosplay's (Which I think would be great because that's a craft!), or introducing her to a show I like. I dunno, I just feel we do too much going out to eat, going home, watching something for an hour or two and then going to bed. I want to do so much more with her. I just need to open my mouth.

The date's are where we shine I think. That's when I feel our full potential coming out. I love activities!!! We've gone bowling, bubble tea-ing, brunching, board gamesing, ice creaming, escape rooming, clubbing, and to a museum!! Not all of those are dated but I wanted to include them anyway.

Im with myself today. I wanted a day to stop everything, to make sure I got my writing done. I think this may be a milestone post in that I don't know what comes after this. I wanted to change my writing style and I think it starts here. I don't think I have the time to give you my day by day. Maybe instead you get my thoughts as I feel the need to write them. Regardless of what the future holds I wish you well!!

- Dyl