February 20th - 22nd, 2026

February 20th, 2026

// Written on March 2nd, 2026 //

I can scarcely remember work. With it being a Friday I can only assume it was busier than we might've anticipated and was more hectic than we'd've liked. I can recall going home to grab some clothes for the weekend and then grabbing juice from Walmart before I drove to my babygirl. We took the shortest of naps, Drez was at our door before I could close my eyes. Tania was dressed as Closet Kim Possible, and I went as Nighwing if he was at the club and he was Wasian and he had brown hair and brown eyes and-.

I introduced Drez and Tania, then Rajvir and Tania. We hit an LCBO before heading downtown. I can remember this so vividly. I was so happy in that specific moment of getting back into the car, seeing two of my closest friends and my girlfriend all together. There's snow in my memory but I don't know if that's real or not.

We got to the parking lot and the only person who was close so far was Jenny, Tania and I went to pick her up. Oh my God. After 2/3 years, my genderbent Korean twin; The reunion was less climactic than one might expect. It wasn't like the movies. It was slow, quiet and reserved. We brought her back to Drez and Raj. It was nothing short of a joy to reunite with someone I missed so dearly, to introduce them to my new life.

Lindsey, Lindsey, Mikayla, Nicci, and Marena all came staggered and later. When the group (- Dave and L) was assembled we headed to the club. I don't actually remember when Dave or L showed up but I remember being so happy introducing them to Tania, and vice versa. I remember being on my knees at the club begging for kisses.

Jenny was ready to head out, we didn't want her walking alone so Drez, L and I went with her. This was the real catch up, she and I talked about our old mutual with honesty and something short of respect. It was brutal and fun and so utterly cathartic to know I wasn't crazy and to get a better perspective of the larger picture I didn't even know existed. God I hope to see her again.

Back to the club and in truth the vibes were not vibing, not the way I wanted them to. I dont know when or how but my girlfriend who did not drink in the pregame was now drunk. The last Sexy Nerds was leagues ahead of this, I wish they came to that instead. This was my plan, I invited everyone out, I could see that people were trying to have fun instead of having fun. :C

I wanted to call it, I tried getting everyone out. We left the place andsome drunkard was rude as shit to Tania when he was asking for directions. She told him exactly where he needed to go, then he turns to Raj and asks him too. Raj pulls out his phone because he has no idea about this area of the map. The guy eventually comes to a conclusion, looks at us and goes something akin to "Okay, well he's lost and youre a woman so I don't know who to trust."


My jaw dropped. Eventually we got the group out of the club and into the Toronto cold, we walked to a burger place we passed up on, on one of out previous outtings. The burgers were really good and decently priced. I cant remember the rest of the night, just Drez picking up Tania and I, then we fell asleep in his backseat. He woke us up when we were at Tania's. I said goodnight and thanked him for the ride. Then I remember being in bed telling Siri to thank him for the ride and to get home safe. My last bullet point for the night was "I love seeing this girl"

February 21st, 2026

// Written on March 2nd, 2026 //

Slightly hungover, we just lounged at her place for the day talking. We were up at 11 and I headed out for Pickering around 330. I wanted to try calling in but my Titos were not having it. Understandable, I had agreed to this arrangement, it was rude of me to just back out because I found a beautiful, wonderful, smart, kind, caring, compassionate angel, darling, princess of a woman for a girlfriend and want to spend every waking moment with her.

I got to East Side Segovias around 5. Traffic was unforgiving and I was tired. The two randoms were kind and forgiving, my uncles poured their minds into the conversations, I let my foot off the gas for some of my notes in the book. I didn't want to fight. One of the men had told me my reading was done well and that I have a voice for radio. :)

The mens thing ended around 7, it kind of feels like therapy for my titos. I told the family about Tania for a while untiul Georgia came back home and the cousins snuck downstairs to yap.

It was 10, I was going home to my baby.

February 22nd, 2026

// Written on March 2nd, 2026 //

would that I could write about how the room smelled, how the light hit her walls, how she looked when she slept. The warmth I felt beneath her sheets. I can't recall it. It was a normal morning of which we went for breakfast, or brunch I don't recall the times for anything.

I only remember us finishing before her shift around 1? I got home, I knocked out with Kimchi, I woke up to her facetiming me about the blog. She had opinions about how I wrote about women I didn't even know, she felt special until she read how I wrote about other women. :C

I think there's a difference in my writing, I think I wax poetic more with her, I think she's so much more than words on a screen. Most day's shes the first thing I see in the morning, and the last thing I see at night. The Sunshine, and the Moon. She is an active force in my life that influences my emotions. I circle her the way the Moon does the Earth, how the Earth does the Sun.

I tried to show her the difference in my writing but I showed her something I wrote last week and the conversation turned into something else.

// Written on February 22nd, 2026 //

"they really only let you be happiest when theyre rady to pull the rug out from underneath you. I can feel my heart bleeding. My own fault, I left the blade a little too close, and when I tripped... I;m sorry, I wrote what I was feeling at the time, my mind changes constantly and I know that. I hadn't written about that since because It no longer remained true, it was no longer pertinent. I can feel it, shame. Eating away at me like rats, theyve opened up my chest and squirmed their way through my ribs; what was made to protect me was nothing more than a footnote in my defences. They're tearing mat my heart, I can feelthem chewing on each indiviudal piece."

Oop-

Ahem-

So she had a different friend convince her the same thing. She says she gets PTSD seeing me talk about that, she knows were different but it just reminds her and she doesnt like it

We're okay, im just stupid dramatic.