March 30th, 2026 - April 5th, 2026 - I love you too!

I could put all of it behind me. The new week had started. Monday was slow and exhaustive. The conversation from the nights prior still lingered in my brain. I suppressed tears. The day ended mildly and I could start again on Tuesday. AND TUESDAY?? What a day it was. The cousins chat tried to do the trend where you send a picture every hour. It helped the day pass. I did make a vital crucial mistake however. I thought something was less than it was but at the end of the day it was still putting people in danger. I won't defend it, I just- Ughhhh. I will not do it if I am asked not to, that is the end all be all. Tania and I hung out after work, I stalked her location and then we drove home together, we got ice cream, the day was nice! Then she found out about me putting people in danger and understandably she was displeased. We talked. I tried to go to bed composed. It was late.

That Wednesday was a nightmare. I had put too many holes in the ship and I could not bail water fast enough. In the morning I did not get my kiss goodbye, I knew I was still cared about, I knew she was upset, it still put a damper in my mood. I could blame no one but myself. I hated me. That was the theme of the day. Hate. I hadn't felt like this since Dennis. Where I blamed everything on me, put the burden of the world on my shoulders. What a sorrid day. I hope my coworkers forgive my foul attitude. I cried as soon as I got in, the rest of the day didn't go better. They said I didn't look good, asked if I was okay. After work I went to Tania's I hoped to salvage what I had and even she told me I didn't look good, I was pale, ghastly. She expressed concern and I did my best to reassure. It was a weird night.

The Thursday was much better, the guilt and shame had mostly washed off and it was an early weekend. Work was hectic and a lot but we managed to get through it. I stayed the night at Tania's after packing for the weekend and I could start fresh again.

Friday!! I woke up in my lovers embrace and it was so nice. We went downstairs for breakfast and watched Superstore together, our eating show. It was nice, it was kind. Life was good. An episode of Valentines had just aired and at 10:40 in the morning on Friday April 3rd, 2026, Tania told me she loves me for the first time. TANIA LOVES ME!!!! GONE GONE THE FORM OF DOUBT FOR FROM HER DIVINE LIPS THE VOICE OF GOD HERSELF HATH SPOKEN!!! IN A BURST OF SOUND I HAVE BEEN TOLD I AM LOVED. WHEN MY NECK HURT THE MOST AND AN EPISODE OF SUPERSTORE ABOUT VALENTINES PLAYED, WHEN I EXPECTED IT LEAST, I HAD TO DOUBLE TAKE BECAUSE DESPITE ITS VOLUME I ALMOST DIDNT HEAR IT.

I don't even remember the rest of the day. Or the weekend to be honest. Easter we went for lunch with my mom and my siblings at Wok Boyz. But I will always remember the Friday. I love you.