March 26th - 29th, 2026 - End of the Beginning

Girl hey!

It is an understatement to say I missed you. Writing has been my first passion for a minute now. It is unfortunate that it took me to stop writing for me to realize how much I love it. With that said, it is nice to live life not constantly worrying about what I'm going to say on my little website. Though I do find it difficult to remember the days. My memories fall from my brain like grains of sand between fingers. It isn't an issue for the most part, I would say my greatest gripe is not being able to remember every miniscule detail of the time I spend with my love, or with my friends. This is my life and if I can't remember it, did I ever live it at all?

March has come to a close and what a month it was! The death of the club crew, the introduction of Tania to all my other loved ones, my hair was dyed, my brother turned 14. To touch on that first topic, I fear not going to Linda's birthday has put a damper on anyone wanting to invite people out. Genuinely that is one of my greater regrets. I hope in time I can fix that, if I can gather the strength to apologize and ask to start again I'll let you know. Those are good people I'd hate to lose them. Raj feels the same, he even wants to invite them to his birthday. My brother turning 14 is not such a momentous event for me to write about, I love the little goober but I wasn't even at his birthday party, and his dinner was filled with strangers over family. I think the funniest part of that is him getting like $200 in Robux.

What I find more interesting to write about, and something I think I SHOULD write about: Introducing Tania to my other loved ones! (And the weekend I almost lost it all) It started unorthodox and on the Thursday in place of the Friday. Emotions I was letting bottle up were finally starting to make a meal of me and I had very little left to give so they started looking for new hosts, one of those unfortunate souls was my girlfriend. Someone who only deserves the best, all the happiness in the world is less than they deserve. She, liking me, asks me to come over frequently, I, still adjusting to life as a couple and not a single wanted some time to myself. Now a normal human being might say "Not today" I instead gave in because at the end of the day I still want to see her all the time forever, I just also wanted to be myself for a few hours. I did not communicate this and instead let it fester. She invited me over on the Thursday and I went with a mission. To tell her how I was feeling, but I was too heated, too charged, my words were bullets and pointed not bullet points. I had killed my girlfriend in her bed, she expressed how she felt. We talked. I like to think we went to bed better for the conversation, I only wish I hadn't let it get to the point where I was- I was cruel. That's not something I ever want to be. If I wanted my space I could have just asked.

Then Friday, that was an easy day. Quiet and nice, only a good session being the highlight. That and my love was waiting for me when I finished. :)

Saturday and Sunday were a lot. More than I'd like to get into. I'll write about the good parts but I am too far removed to write about one of the lowest parts of my relationship.

The Saturday started out with Pizza Pizza, but I was too pissy at something else to make food for my love. I would get the chance to fix this a few weeks from then. After Breakfast we took Logan with us to the twins birthday. It was fine, I mostly enjoyed it for the time I could spend with my cousins and introducing Tania to them. My mom came with Freya eventually and it was time for Tania and I to go.

We left the party and I had to switch gears on our way to meet Martin, Drez and Ryan. I hadn't told Tania my plans and she was ill dressed for an active type outting. It was my own fault, a failure to think or communicate so we went to an escape room instead. I think the escape room was better personally. It was mummy themed and we beat the room with no hints. It was insanely dark though, you get two lanterns and a flashlight and it was wild to have to solve clues in the dark, really fun.

I wish I could say dinner was just as good. We went to Maharlika Resto Bar and Grill. Egh. Like, the food was really good and I loved the pool table, but as soon as the band started going we had to get out of there. On the one hand I feel bad, we left as they were starting their set, that would kill me as an artist. On the other hand, we went to dinner with the intention of talking as much as possible to better introduce Tania to my friends, and we could not hear shit when the band started. We went for bubble tea after, one last try to talk but it was pretty late. We got an extra thirty minutes and then Martin and Ryan took Drez home. Something I am eternally grateful for because I was dead tired.

The Sunday. I actually don't want to get into at all.

Just know that I introduced Tania to Andie, Nico and Georgia. We went to some church youth thing. I never want to see that pastors face again. Nico and I got our hair dyed. The day was too long. I make too many of the same mistakes. If silence could kill, I would be dead.