September 30th, 2025 - The truth is that I’ll reconcile this autumnal yearning (Canadians exist on stolen land)

I feel like I have joint custody against my bitch of an ex husband. I have to ask if I can see my kids, to which they say yes or Dennis (and Dennis adjacent characters) has something that day. I know I’m not getting Halloween so I’ve settled for friendsgiving, which to my knowledge we’ve never done? We might’ve one year, I forget. But here’s hoping that the planning goes well.

I’m also tryna run Gyubee this weekend but it seems Tracy has something planned. I think we can still make it work.

Annjelette wasn’t in today, I was so excited to see her, so relieved to have help once more, to spend time with my friend. And then the seconds turned to minutes without her, for the first time in centuries I looked at the clock. Watching the second hand tick, tick, tick. It was 7:30 and she hadn’t come in yet. I didn’t have time at present to message her, I got to work and to the best of my ability put lunch out. Drez, G, and I banged out the rush and then it was just me and Drez and annoyingly Maher on the line. When it was quiet, I left Drez to himself. I cleaned the back. I hungered. We went for lunch ourselves where I got sucked into talking about Japan, a subject I was thoroughly uninterested in. I wanted to hear about whatever was happening with Nuria, Drizzy and Mansur but the Japan talking continued. I didn’t message Annjelette, I didn’t message Nicole. Foolish.

I’m facing similar issues to when I had first started the gym with Dennis. Drez does a short workout to keep himself lean, strong. I need to give everything that I am to lose and gain. I’m not doing what I should be. He finishes an hour workout and I’ve barely scratched what I came to do. But I like to leave at the same time. I need to fix my AirPods, then I can go to the gym properly. I can do my warmup with Drez and my workout on my own. Let’s fix my shit this weekend and then start next week properly.

I don’t think I doomscrolled so heavily today, though I did download a h game. It occupied my whole afternoon. Not my wisest of decisions. Though I was able to lay the foundations for friendsgiving and plan a Saturday hangout. Now if only I could do the same with my potential love interests.

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I’m quite proud of myself. Only a month and some weeks into 26 and I’ve accomplished a lot I think. Cause for celebration. We. Are. So. Back. Please writers, give me a love interests (the strength to message the fineshyts)

Goodnight! Goodnight! Goodnight!