October 11 & 12 2025 - Weekend at Shabibi's

// October 11th, 2025 //

I still have the remnants of only hours ago in my head. I had a short rest not a long one. I’m under the effects of sleep deprivation, intoxication, exhaustion, I be stacking my shii up. I woke up to a text from Martin saying he couldn’t make it, Ryan’s would arrive an hour later. I got to Shabins around 1 and we went shopping until 230. Once we got back to the crib I fell asleep. Done dead to the world for an hour and a half. Drez and Chris were the first to arrive, then Kenneth. Drizzy knocked out for a long time.

Justin joined us when we went for a walk. Ryan Co after that. It was like an old school hangout. We really didn’t have any plans, I just brought everyone together. We threw a movie on, we yapped. I had hoped biggeth and roy and Dave would’ve come earlier but they pulled up eventually. I was already gone by the time they got here though, no time to talk. I had gone non verbal at the function and when we all went outside for some air I got absolutely licked. One puff from James and I was out. It wasn’t time travel it was slow motion. I couldn’t move, I had Drez and Raj take me to Shabins room and I was there for the rest of the night. I think they took a picture of me while I was conked. I didn’t get to say any kind of speech or anything. I dunno, I’m not disappointed, I’m glad I could get together with my friends, I think I just wanted the whole day thing with more people. Haven’t had the chance to lore drop on Middeth in a while. We always have tomorrow. I’ll see him again.

----Addendum----

Drez scared me worse than I’ve ever been scared in my life. I had a blood curdling scream chill my spine to my core. We were outside talking when James pulled up. I was dissociating and Drizzy was beside me when he just screamed, scared; I nearly jumped out of the seat, out of my skin. My heart was running marathons.

And I think I was good about uh... To the point where it isn’t even worth mentioning.

// October 12th, 2025 //

I sent nene a birthday text yesterday. I knew it was today but I had a reminder saying “it’s tomorrow!” And I didn’t exactly read it properly, despite knowing it was the next day I still sent it thinking I was late. Foolishness.

I woke up in Shabins bed. Messages from too many people. Thoughts and ideas sprung forth from an abyss I had thought I buried. I filled in the chasm with my own peace and let the day move on. Shabibi drove my car to the gas station, then Tim’s, then BCC. I looked at the time, and it was already 2. Gone were whatever I had planned today. We met up with Drez a little later and the 3 of us went to and from the laundromat and BCC a number of times until the black man’s laundry was ready.

I took Drez for Jollibee. It was good, I love Jollibee, I don’t think it’d be worth so steep a price if not for eating the meal with good company. They both loved the food. I need to do Kamayan now. Middeth changed his mind on his birthday, we’d be doing a bowling excursion instead and the medieval times would be its own thing. I could settle. After I grabbed my stuff from Shabins and saying bye to Drez, Yeca said goodbye and told me to get home safe.

I drove recklessly knowing I couldn’t get into an accident if I tried. At home I let my dearest of cousins bdays pass me by. It was 8pm and I had not responded to her. My brain was on too much, too many unanswered messages. I turned it all off at 12.