May 29th - June 2nd, 2026 - Frick my stupid chungus life

Written June 1st, 2026

The weekend was kind to me! The drive to work this morning was not. Friday gave me if but the shortest reprieve from life. Between getting off of work and starting Dungeons it was not a very full break, it was spent mostly to doom scroll, turn my brain off, but after a week so gutting I think maybe some leniency is earned.

Saturday was really fun! I drove to Tania’s after dungeons and got to wake up next to my girlfriend. I’m always awake before her, I was on my phone for some time before I took it upon myself to be her alarm. We readied ourselves for the day and drove to Bramalea station to pick up her friend Dom. The drive to Guelph wasn’t short but it didn’t feel long. I had in cabin entertainment, that being my girlfriend’s torment to her friend Dom.

Eventually we got to Dhillons house and I set up my board. I think my shark coochie board came out good! I didn’t even need everything I brought. Just the donuts would’ve been sufficient. Though I do regret that there was so very little actual food of sustenance. Tania and I had to grab food after.

During however I got to meet more of her friends, we played spike ball, corn hole and Ito. One of her friends is so insanely jacked, my eyes were so large looking at him. His arm is gargantuan and so fucking chiseled!! I dressed too nicely for the physical activities, I felt a little- out of sorts. I love that I’m being shown off to her friends, that I get to meet and hang out with them. I just wish my ice would melt off, I’m so nervous around new people, it takes so long for me to be comfortable, I just want to be at the end of this journey now, I don’t want to have to see them so much that I can feel comfortable. I want instant gratification.

We left around 6ish, we dropped off Dom and then we went for dinner at El Mariachis, I was lamenting at the price vs Contigos but the shrimp tacos I had were on par with my fave tacos and definitely worth the price. (Though I wouldn’t mind something cheaper)

It was a good day.

Sunday May 31st, 2026

I got to see the condo I fell in love with!!!! AGHHHH!!!! It was so nice, being in it was sooooo good. I love it so much!!!! If not for the Murphy bed in the master bedroom it would be perfect!!! I only hope that I can live here because I would be so happy.

When Tania and I got home from the tour we had ice cream sundaes and watched Superstore. We got in shit for being downstairs. I had anger and no place to put it. She napped and I laid with her.

We were on island time after waking up because we left at the time we were supposed to have picked up Kuya Alvin. It was nice seeing him!! Tania thought he was funny and I found it strange that he’d meet my girlfriend before Nene. We got to the Wings place in Etobicoke and had a nice lil late lunch with my family. Lots of screaming and shouting and huffing and puffing. What was so normal to me, Tania had to ask me about later. I didn’t realize you could become blind and deaf to things I would normally be fearful for if someone else was doing them.

We got to her house and she napped outside while I did nothing. Eventually it was time for bed. I’ve been really missing the gym lately but life has been fucking garbage and busy. I’m also not drinking enough water but please refer to my last sentence.

Written June 2nd, 2026

I am so done with this week. I had Tania over yesterday which was nice, we fell into what has become our usual pattern. Chipotle and Superstore on the couch, brush teeth, go to sleep. I didn’t get much done prior to her coming over. I think I just needed to turn my brain off.

Today isn’t much better. I have so much animosity for work. We know mark is leaving the same time every year and yet somehow we are constantly fucked every time he leaves. It is baffling, mind boggling, stupid decision making that runs this company. They genuinely do not give two shits about us as people. We do not exist.

Then I finally sat down and did the math for Drez and I. We can’t afford the condo I love. It’s so far over budget. I think even with a second job it wouldn’t make a difference. And what good is having a place of my own if I’m never there? Fuck. As it stands I have nothing. I feel so powerless it hurts, I feel so small. Sometimes it’s fun to see how little we are in the grand scheme of things but today I just feel like I’m nothing at all.

I feel everything I do is pointless, I’ll never have enough to own or even rent a place of my own, I’ll never get out of this fuck ass job, and I feel like a prisoner in my mothers home. I just finally paid off my speeding ticket but I know my $1200 service for my car is coming. Existence is hell right now and I just want to not have to live it.

Then I also came home and Kimchi is bleeding! He tried to run out last week and his tail caught in the door pretty hard. I think maybe it could be that? But it wasn’t bleeding on the day of, or I just missed it. I’m not sure. But I feel so bad. I called the animal hospital, I’ll try to get him an appointment for tomorrow. Squeeze it into Lola Linda’s burial proceedings.