January 26th - 29th, 2026 - One of the best

(Written on February 7th, 2026)

January 26th, 2026

We called the day off. What was supposed to be a normal boring Monday became another day at home. I am ecstatic! Like, I cannot tell you how much I needed this. I wasn't productive, in place of that I was kind, which I can make peace with. I drove my siblings to a park in Toronto, The monkeys offered to have them join tobogganing. I however, spent that time stuck in the snow. As soon as I dropped them off I realized I couldn't get out of the parking lot. The snow which had prevented me from doing my job now prevented me from having my fun; The greatest analogy of having my cake and not being able to eat it I've experienced.

Eventually I escaped, I drove to a different parking lot and just talked to Tania. When the kids were done, I took us all home and we played the Wonder Woman board game. It's fun! The mechanics are cool and everything but god damn I think it runs too long. Even with the easiest villain I find it drags. It could be said that the company I play with is the issue and not the game itself. I can agree with that partially, though I still find it is really fun in the begining but once you get 30 minutes in and you're just trying to survive, it loses it's momentum.

Later in the day, when it belonged to me and me alone I started a new BG3 run. I had been on a spree of trying to roleplay Choso in various games and the only one I found possible was Baldurs Gate. I downloaded a mod that allows me to play as a blood sorcerer, and I'm really enjoying it so far.

January 27th, 2026

Chuesday innit? It was strange not having Monday's work provide a float for Tuesday; still we made do. I got devastating news from a friend while I was at work, they had just been let go. I could not believe it. I- I'd never see them again, at least not in the same place we met. It is a surreal feeling. Though I know they'll be okay and wish them the best. Tania and I be textin' ehehhee.

January 28th, 2026

I got through a Daniel Caesar album. What Antonio could never do, Drez did in a day. Sorry that's unfair to compare the two, we have different relationships and commitments to one another. Fruedian was phenomanal, I broke down crying on my way home because Blessed was so good. One of the songs, The best part, reminded me of Tania. I added it to her playlist and when I was telling her about the album I found out that, that was her favourite song. The grin on my face was gargantuan.

Wonder Man is really good. I was ready to do what I usually do a la have a show running while I play my game but Wonderman had me glued to my screen, I needed to give it my full attention. I love these characters, the writing, the stories. I watched it into the night just before bed.

January 29th, 2026

I can't recall work at all but I recall everything after! Drez and I went straight for Erin Mills to hang out until Gym! We mostly walked around, my boy doesn't have the funds right now so I treated him to whatever he wanted which thankfully wasn't a lot. I picked up some Chinese, and some kakanin then we were off. We got to Fit4Less and that shit was packed. We kinda just idled around for a while waiting for our friends, then when they did arrive they turned to me for the PR Olympics. I was so far out of my depth. I needed Raj with me. I work out but it isn't something I'm even remotely well versed in. I put my skill points into STR not WIS. RyCo's Cousin however was a Barbarian / Wizard Multiclass and that made all the difference. He guided us through an upper body workout with some legs attatched and the four of us (Kenneth, RyCo, Drizzy and I) followed along, writing down our scores. We were all first in different workouts. Ryan Co has one of craziest hidden strengths I've ever seen. I hit my first rep on Bench Press! 1 plate!! :))) I NEED TO BE STRONGER IMMEDIATELY.

Today was one of the greatest in a minute. I’m opening up mail from nene and I wanna cry because im so fucking proud and happy for her. These wedding photos are so beautiful she looks gorgeous, I type this through tears. Then I open another letter that just arrived today. And it’s the literal coolest thing I’ve ever seen, she had a telegram sent to me, SHE USED A TYPEWRITER!!!!??? I love my sister so much, god forgive me for not responding.

AND!!! I’m falling in love tryna plan a date with a beautiful woman!!!

I think I wanna restructure this blog. My scattershot posts are too close together. You don’t need to hear every minute detail of every second of my life. I think I’m going to start uploading maybe weekly? Or when I HAVE something to talk about. I also think the posts are too personal. I know when I started this my plan was to give you my everything, no filter, be my most real self. The way everyone wears 3 masks, one for their friends and family, one for strangers and one for themselves, I was to give you myself. These days however I have things I don't think should be said aloud. At least not to everyone. Please know I don't want to lie, I just think it unwise to put my heart on the internet. Maybe one day I'll give you my all again.

:))) just know at this very moment in time in my life I am sooo very happy!!!! I wish joy was a stronger feeling than sadness. Sadness brings me to my knees clutching at my chest to rip out a heart I can never reach. Love will can do the exact same, but Joy just isn't powerful enough an emotionl. But I am happy. :)))