August 8th - 10th, 2026 - Kingsday and The $10 Rage Room

August 9th, 2026

I had my party yesterday. My dumb ass really thought I could have everything set up in an hour. Martin, Raj and Ryan (AND RONIC???) came to my aid around 11, we didn’t have everything set up until maybe 2. The real party itself didn’t start until 4. I felt bad for having Mama and my Ninang Floni and Lolo Ves out so long. They were the first ones there and I didn’t have a tent until much much later. I hope I didn’t embarrass myself in front of my family. My Tito Justin told me to not worry, that my “bad” is just silliness, that our families “bad” has been down right terrible.

I am loved, I know that. In truth I remember thinking it is so bizarre that I had the best day of my life on Wednesday with my friends and family, then a quiet okay birthday with Nene, Nico and Tito. My Friday was forgettable and then I was reunited with so many loved faces as we played my games and ate my food. I thought of how it was the same week I dropped my babygirl off at the airport. I missed her. I was on the battlefield, sword in hand and I missed her. There was a time where I was just drunk enough to perceive false realities and we were playing big team battle. I had slain a foe and when I turned around my own cousin had a spear in my neck. That was the last thing I saw. I will forever hold that image in my mind. I know what it looks like to die.

ANYWAY!!! August 8th was really fun. An incredibly slow start. There was an hour and a half where Raj, Martin, Ryan, Nico and Ronic all left to run errands and it was just me, Wuggy and Uncle Roy playing with the bows and arrows. But I am so thankful to everyone who came, everyone who enjoyed themselves, I apologize because I know I wasn’t the greatest host, some of my family came and said hi, then sat down to talk with the rest of the family. I, the King, was more focused with my war than my diplomacy. I let the games run, I watched and cheered at my knights triumphs. I appreciate everyone who helped set up and clean up especially. I know I am loved. Thank you!

Today, was an easy-ish day in. I spent it watching S2 of Thousand Year Blood War. I worked on my birthday gift for Tania, did laundry, cleaned my car and tried to clean my room. There truly is never enough time.

August 10th, 2026

I am feeling very stupid and not very forgiving at all. Work was perfectly adequete except for the part where I was poking the bear. Fuckers want to talk about "Sorry did I give you more work to do?" Do not play me, I will carve your name into my flesh so they know who killed me. We are overworked until our bones protrude from our fingers and you wish to say that we have too many people in the kitchen. Ugh, to my dearest and most faire, should these words fall unto your unfortunate eyes, I do not mean the words I say I promise. They are meant for hyperbolic purposes only (In this context, my words ring true when I tell you I love you. {P.S I can't wait to watch New Girl with you, and what Bollywood film will we watch next? And also can we watch Apoth Diaries?}).

We got a new hire today, she holds the same name as the racist women we just recently disposed of, I pray her fate is not similar. I think I caught her hitting something in the fridge, girl whatever.

After work I had to run errands at a place to do things for people. After that was finished I went to the thrift store just for some funsies. I found a tv for $10. If ever you find gold, make sure it isnt pyrite before you mine. I spent another 10 or so dollars at Best Buy for the power cable, worse still I spent my whole afternoon trying to troubleshoot it. Eventually I planned to save it for a later date, I tried placing it beneath my bed but it sustained damage. I thought it would be funny now that after the screen was broken if I plugged it in and it worked. It didnt. With my time and money and my time wasted there was only one thing left to do. I destroyed the tv. My own personal rage room for $10.

Now I sit here feeling sad and stupid and hungry. I am not currently kind to myself, I will be later. Not now. I miss Tania- OH MY GOPD SHES CALLING ME!!!!!