October 4th & 5th, 2025 - FTCU (and its aftermath)

// Saturday Oct 4th //

I woke up decently early. I was able to clean up my room from the week prior, able to clean myself up too. I have my clothes ready for my outfit change before the club.

Dropped my mom off at Contigo and helped her set the girl guides stand up before I headed home and got picked up by Martin.

Lunch was nice! We waited at the restaurant for maybe 10 minutes before we were served. They close the place down in between lunch and dinner. Drez pulled up maybe 20 minutes after we started. I was able to get what I’ve been up to out there and Ry talked about his new job, Martin some new discord friends. Me and Ry cooked while Drizzy and Martin talked. Martin wants me to pursue Nicole if nothing but for the bit. My second stomach came in clutch, we were all full by the end of the meal.

Martin took all of us to Square and we just shopped around, he picked up the first couple My Dress up Darlings and I got him 10% off. He was gonna grab the one he couldn’t find at indigo at GameStop but stupid ahh GameStop was up charging. The book is $16 why is GameStop charging $20??????????? HUH??

We convinced Drez to ask a girl out. It started off with him just talking to the cashier but Martin and I are looking at each other, in my head I’m at contigo with Drez and Raj and I’m seeing the same scenario play out. Me and a friend watch Drez accidentally flirt (he’s literally just talking) and we convince him to make a move. She was taken but that’s more fuel for the club.

We say goodbye to Martin and Ryan and we pick up Kenneth. I’m changing in the car and I can’t get these stupid contacts in, I go to the club without eyes. At LCBO we pick up this 40% Vodka drink with mango? We drive downtown and park kinda close. In the parking lot we down our drink, that shit was the nastiest potion I’ve ever had. I like vodka, but that? This must’ve been how the boys felt last week about my tequila. I bought a bottle of soju too, but that just tasted like rubbing alcohol too. I think alcohol is losing its appeal. If it doesn’t taste like sugar I don’t want it. The drink was so bad in fact, that we resorted to the meat from Gyubee as a chaser. Anything to drown the poison from the bottle.

Uhm. The club was fun! I don’t know if I’ve ever sweat like that in my life. My outfit was absolutely drenched by the time I took it off. It started off kind of weak in my eyes. We got there and mfs were all spaced out, no one was really getting into it. Only when Drez (and Kenneth and I, but mostly Drez) started dancing that a mosh pit formed. We were doing our own thing in the corner and so at some point someone moved our mosh pit to the front. We danced for hours, broke our voices. The DJ gave me the mic during The Black Parade…. I can’t say I’m Filipino after seeing that atrocious display of singing cuh, they gotta revoke my claim. Can’t sing, can’t dance, not a nurse?? He white, white. Anyway, they said they’d keep the party going till 3, it was 130 and I was done. I couldn’t do anymore. Drez was going all night. Kenneth and I chilled on the couch, and I had to throw up. I ended up in the washroom for I don’t know how long. It was only when I heard my two friends calling me in the bathroom that I realized it was time to go. I threw up on myself. It hit the toilet seat and splashed my thighs and the back of my pants. It was- green?? The only thing I ate that was green was lettuce and some seaweed salad. The potions I drank were orange and blue. I would hate to see what my insides look like. Lots of people were dressed up, I never felt out of place save for my poor dancing. I didn’t have my glasses on so I didn’t know what mfs looked like. As far as I could tell there was no one I was interested in.

We left, Drez said goodbye to EVERYONE on the way out. Every mf in that joint knew him by the end of the night. He oozes aura, bro was born with the sauce. We ended up at McDonald’s at Heartland. That was the greatest tasting meal of my life bro.

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I thought I was done with hatred, I thought I overcame it. Nothing left in my heart but peace, all love. I didn’t know I left the flame on, I came home and my house was nothing but ash. I saw a picture of him and my blood ignited, I was too drunk to think rationally. I- I hated him. Cmon man. We’re so fucking past this frfr. Nothing he can do affects you anymore. Move on! Ugh. I think I just didn’t like seeing Raj and Middeth beside him. I still know what jealousy is. Character regression is fine in small doses, no one person is perfect forever. I’ll be okay, I’ll move on. But tonight it really fucked me up; which is a shame, I hate to give him the satisfaction. He isn’t worth another line of words and yet I keep typing.

// Sunday October 5th //

Today has been nice. It’s good to just… do nothing. Especially when the last two days have just been non stop. Though I’m enjoying it, all this go go go. I feel like I’m actually living, experiencing. I cleaned myself up after yesterday. Put my things away both physically and virtually. I finally found some time to organize all the loose files on my computer. I was able to compile the club videos into a 5 minute video. Texted a couple people.

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I don’t remember falling asleep. I remember playing my h game and then I woke up to my siblings requesting I play my DC card game with them. We played for an hour or 2 and then I finished my h game. It’s like 10 I guess I’ll go to bed.

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It’s almost 11, I’m just updating the blog and then I’ll try to go to bed. That nap might’ve screwed me over.