January 19th - 23rd, 2026 - Weird Week, That's Life

January 19th, 2026 - I love Choso

(Written January 24th, 2026)

I've read JJK. I was in the trenches for that final Shinjuku Showdown. The Lobotamy Kaisen I had to endure... After all of it, I came out the others side thinking JJK was just okay. I've just watched the lastest episodes for season 3 (First three episodes) and by god I think JJK can do it. It can be one of the greatest. It can fill that hole of shonens being 20 something episodes a season. The art direction is gorgeous. I have never hated JJK in terms of what it looked like but this season? MAPPA is never letting those mfs see their families because it has never looked better. I also just really like that every season of JJK has felt so insanely different from the last. Maybe that's more thanks to the actual story being everywhere rather than the animation but I still find it so impressive to never feel repetitive. Anyway, Choso is my goat and I am in love with season 3.

January 20th, 2026 - Ideas? More liked Idead.

Hella thoughts and no brain to store them. I’m very tired of being in love with the idea of doing something only to be blocked by the fact I have work. Drez had mentioned this last week where shower thoughts happen because your brain isn’t doing anything in that moment. You have the water running over you and that’s about it. Your brain can shut off from the world and just feel. In place of that, all of my ideas come in the car ride on my way to work and I hate it. Not only can I not do anything with these ideas à la I’m driving plus I’ll be at work BUT I can’t ever write them down, my best bet is throwing it into a voice note but that ish ain’t happening.

So- I’m left with all these ideas and all these plans to run after work. Do you know what I do when I get home? I turn my brain off because I’m so fucking exhausted from the job that I tolerate.

Ugh, that itch is coming back. My job isn’t… I’m not in love with it. I like it, I enjoy it. I don’t want it. My biggest fear right now is that it’ll kill me. Not in some exciting way either like bleeding out from a knife wound or burning alive but slowly; by eating away at my time on this Earth. Already my 2 years have become 5. I need to get out. It’ll kill me otherwise. Please. I need to leave.

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On a far less depressive note, I’m steadily texting Renee… UGH!! I dunno. This process is soooo slow. The girl from tinder texted me and I responded to that... I can’t man. I hate this fucking process, especially when I know what it could look like? I’ve played these games before, and I hate to think they were more fun back then. Fugg.

January 21st, 2026 - CRUSH!!

(Written January 24th, 2026)

Tee hee tee hee! Ehehehehe. Tania, the girl from hinge is phenomenal. Her opening was such a perfect foundation. I found her funny, charming and down to earth. The ice wasn’t existent, immediately it invited me to joke and jest around while still being me. Good shit. I’m having a good time texting her.

Serena had said “We'll go on a date when he isnt shy” but am I interested? Not particularly.

Tita Gina had gifted us glass cups for us, I offered to put our names on them as they all look the same. My mom and I headed to Michael’s so I can percure the necessary materials to create the name stickers. Good lord, Michael’s is filled with gorgeous women.

Anyway, we get home and she teaches me how to use the Cricut, simple enough just tedious. She has me make her some stickers while I’m already there, she has me use her dollar store vinyl… garbage. Please never again. I’ll pay for the convenience of good vinyl.

I finish the stickers and knock out.

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Drez had me listening to Mac Millers, “Swimming”. I liked it, it wasn’t as hard as PARTYOF2’s Group Therapy but it was still something really enjoyable. I don’t love Millers voice, or his flow in some instances, and I especially hated the first 4/5 songs of the album but I really enjoyed everything after “WINGS”.

January 22nd, 2026 - I'm writing the future, I'm writing it out, loud, We don't talk about the past

If we were still friends I’d want Gojo/Geto tattoos. I’d want either the stitches on our foreheads to symbolize where they both end up or the fish. I wouldn’t go for the full line on the fore head. I think one stitch on either side of the forehead would suffice.

(Written January 24th, 2026)

AGHHHH!!! I’m having so much fun texting Tania. I forgot how much fun having crushes and falling in like with people is, and and and-!! :)))))

Work was fine, I hit the gym. I got home and watched what I think is the ending of Percy Jackson, wow. That was an ending!! Was it good? I liked it. I think the Thalia actress seems a little too old for this role. She doesn’t feel like she fits with the rest of the cast because she seems like she’s in her mid 20s tryna hang out with 16 year olds. It’s bizarre. Some other changes from the page to the screen has been lost on me but I dunno. I think it serves the universe they’ve built in the show. If I want the peak that is the books I always have them to read… I actually have ALL of them to read, Heroes of Olympus and the Senior years are sitting on my shelf unread…

Fallout was fine, lots of plot, exposition. No hype, no aura.

OH!!! You know what I wanted to do? I’m tryna justify renting an Airbnb for valentines and then cooking dinner and hanging out there in place of a restaurant.

January 23rd, 2026 - HOPE!!

I just had a daydream so vivid, so lifelike and beautiful it brought me to tears. Full heaving and weeping, cried and wails of agony. But what a beautiful dream it was. Hope for the future. I was on stage, belting my heart out, giving all of me to the audience. My range isn’t high, but I still went for it. Raise an octave. Conducting my band mates to run it back before we close out the set. I raise the octave again, hold the note. Eternity. My voice gives, I buckle, but the audience and my mates shoulder the burden. Their voices ring louder than my own and I know we’ve made it. I let my band mates finish the song. I cry while I thank the other members. I’m going to call my mom as soon as this song finishes, asking her if she saw me, if she was proud. I thank each and every member of the band, I weep into their shoulders, I apologize to the audience if only I could know each and every one of them. It’s a good dream, hope for the future.

(Written January 24th, 2026)

I did my writing recap for dungeons and turned my brain off until it was time for the adventure. I had my camera on and I think it enhanced the experience? If nothing else it doesn’t take away anything. It was a fine* session.

*Fine in this context is hinting at it being like a fine wine in place of it being just fine.