October 3rd, 2025 - Fireworks by Katy Perry is so Denji x Reze coded

I got to work late. Thank the heavens Liz isn’t there because I would hate to get daggers for eyes all day. I waited for my mom to wake up so I could bring in some of the Blue Jay gear. I bought Tim’s as well. My employees deserve their sweet treats, next week is bubble tea.

Our lunch ran long, too long. I fear trouble finds us if we keep this up. We finished work at 5/5:30. Drez wanted to go to the gym but as soon as he finished changing I told him we should go, it was still a long way from Union to Eaton. We drove to Clarkson and parked, took the train into the city and walked for 20 minutes. We were lost in Eaton centre, we stopped by Shoppers first because we smelled like shit. We put deodorant on ourselves and set off to find our friends. As we approached one end of the mall we found that they were on the other side, this pattern continued more than once. Finally Dave found us at H&M, as we left the store, Mikayla and Nicole came up the escalator. I’m a dog without bite, my bark is tremendous but there isn’t enough gall in my lungs to match the venom in my words. I said hi to the two girls, and we started walking. Drez wanted to push me onto Nicole but I think I was already feeling like I knew what I wanted and that it wasn’t this. I let the day continue without me pushing.

We ran the 2 man with 3 of us. We alternated turns walking beside each other, in my eyes it wasn’t romance that fuelled our lungs it was companionship. We wanted to get to know our new found friends better. I led the group without knowing where I was going. I walked forward and talked behind me. The situation wasn’t ideal. At some point I dropped back to walk with Makayla and Drez. This felt better, I could see Dave and Nicole in front. The chemistry was easy to see.

Dave took us down some dark pathways and sketchy streets. I understand that the place is nice in the day but it was not day time. We stepped through the partial abyss for what felt like half an hour. The topic of Halloween Haunt and Friendsgiving came up and it seemed like our friends wanted to do it. I think I’ll try to plan it. Hehehehehe.

We stopped by Kensington, I had to pick up a $50 shirt. Holy fuck, this could have been avoided if I just wore a shirt today. I wasn’t thinking about going out after, I was so in my head about the blue jay gear I completely forgot to bring another set of clothes. I stank, work made me sweaty and all the walking in my sweater wasn’t helping. I needed a short sleeve or I knew it’d be bad when we went for karaoke. At least the shirt I picked up was this nice sailor moon piece.

After Kensington was Big Way Hot Pot. I think it was a fun experience, but for me personally it’s a one off. I’m not a hot pot enjoyer. It’s just a bunch of boiled meat bruh. I liked the vast selection but I eat this shit at home everyday.

Finally, Karaoke!

I LOVE karaoke, but that was pretty low energy. ONLY in comparison to the final night Nico and I spent with Nene and Kuya Alvin. I don’t know if it’s the lack of alcohol or because it’s only our second outing as a group in direct opposition to Nene knowing us our entire lives; but Drez felt like the only mf poppin’ his pussy and giving it 100%. I’m just a mirror, I matched the room, when we were energetic I was up, when we were slower, I was too. All in all however, I had a great time. I only wish the price wasn’t so stupidly insanely high? $60 for an hour is exuberant. Man was robbing us point blank. We ran out of our first hour pretty quickly, and Lindsey hadn’t yet sung too many songs. We put another dime in the jukebox and everyone ran solos before we went back to singing as a group. I wanted to do a song I knew, something that was me entirely but still high enough energy to make the room feel something. I love slow sad songs but that wasn’t my mood. I was going to do secrets by Destroy Boys but Lindsey pointed out Fences and like God speaking to Joan of Arc, I followed the voices. I belted, everything I had into my solo. I dared not look at the room, my little heart feared the expressions of my peers. Drez called my name, he and Dave were headbanging, Lindsey knew the song. I was at peace, the song continued, the bridge came and I screamed with everything that I was. I wish it were recorded, another time perhaps. If Destroy Boys ever comes back I’ll ask Lindsey if she wants to come! :D

The night was over after Karaoke, it was around 130. Drez and I followed Dave onto the bus and through the subway, we reached Kipling and Dave drove us to our cars. I don’t remember the drive, I only remember parking and waking up.

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How do you give up without being a pussy ahh bitch? Can I respectfully Throw in the towel, gracefully bow out? Some sailors see the storm and still claim their sanity intact. They let the winds push them in every direction. Hail batters their sails and walls of water slam into their hull. All easily avoided by simply navigating around the oncoming tempest. Is it bitch behaviour to avoid the storm, is it the pussy inside me that refutes pain? Like the oracle of old I too have prescience over the future, I too can see the disasters that follow fool hearted judgements. Reckless antics and rushed decisions.

If Dave likes Nicole, I wish them the best. It sounds petty when I write it but my words are genuine. She was fun and cool and pretty when we met but my infatuation has worn off, I’m still chasing my brown baddie. She’s cool and casually cosplays but there are better matches for me to find. I’m going to let whatever happens in the next few weeks/months happen. I would moreover just prefer to have some girlfriends again, I lowkey miss having Jenny around. Which is kind of funny because I swear Mikayla has the same voice as Jenny. Anyway-! I’d like our new friends to be just that.

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I had a great time, I’d like this group to continue going and even potentially merge with the other group. I only fear the lack of women is a great deterrent. Maybe if Ned brings his girl around, if I invite Sara. There are pieces of the puzzle that have not yet met and I fear putting them together could be catastrophic. I’m losing my closer…

Today was a lot of fun, I hope there’s more coming on the Horizon.