October 17th - 19th, 2025 The Plague Continues

// Friday Oct 17 //

I bought our coffees, that shit is hella expensive. Like $5 per person almost.

// Saturday Oct 18 //

Today was brilliant, it feels like I’m playing Minecraft on easy mode. It would be peaceful if not for this invisible enemy that has made me its home. I am in prison in my own body, my weakened strength is my cage. One day soon I will break free of this curse. My cure comes in time.

I finally finished The Suicide Squad, after 4 days of watching it. I’m glad to say that it holds up. That the first Gunn DC project still shows why he was hired. I just think it reinforces that he has too much on his plate, he should be overseeing projects not making them directly, but he’s an artist. Who is to stop him? Anyway, the movie is phenomenal. My heart wasn’t in it because it took me 4 days to watch it and any emotional resonance was lost, but the action, the comedy, all of it! And the cool factor? Oh god, I love it all.

Beyond that I did my laundry! Finally! 3 weeks in the making. Tomorrow I will shower. Every day I step closer to being a person again. I’m still on my liquid diet though it’s ironic that my water intake is at its lowest.

It’s Drez and the boys basketball game tonight, I won’t be attending. He brought it up once and I said I’d think about it. I didn’t lie about that, it’s been on my mind. However I know who else is attending and while I know I won’t start anything, I don’t want him to use me as an excuse to start something. My pacifistic tendencies are bouncing on it crazy style. I’m going to sit this night out and be with myself. I’m sick anyway, I shouldn’t be going out. That’s the copium talking. I want to go, but I shouldn’t.

I started the absolute comics today. Finished Batman’s run and started Supermans. In earnest; Superman was the one I looked forward to the least, and yet? It is overwhelmingly good. I think I’ll finish this first arc and start one of the other Absolutes so I can come back to this. Finish strong.

I wrote today. A fantastic recap, at least in my eyes. We were supposed to play but it seems we’ll be leaving Briar and Friends in suspense for the next 2 weeks. A months Hiatus. I fear the worst and hope for the best.

// Sunday Oct 19 //

I zombie brained the entire day. I just want to be cured. This wicked curse has kept me in chains for a whole week now. Please, I'd rather be an amputee than feel this sick. I would kill to never feel like this again. I saw the My Hero movie! I liked it! I though the civilian element was utilized in a way that elevated the story in place of hindering it. Deku and friends felt like main characters and not throw aways in their own story. I think my only issue was that they did the exact same thing that they did in the last movie... The final fight just turns Deku into a bunch of shapes and colours. Brutha, I wanna see the man throw a punch, not whatever that was. It feels like they finished the movie and still had money so they spent it all on less than a minute of animation. And yet with all of that said, when it was Shoto, Bakugo and Deku against the BBEG and "You Say Run" started playing? tears. It isnt fair. That song means so much to me, as a litemotif its is sooooo good. It has pavlovs dogged me into tears everytime I hear it. I am filled with Hope and Joy!!

Mama took us for Pho. Woe that I could not keep her engaged. I tried to show her videos of me clubbing but alas I feel she did not care. I knew not how to hold her attention. I kept off my phone the whole time, the very opposite of my mother. I feared that should she look any longer her eyes may remain permanently affixed to her screen. We took Mama home and got a K Drama started, I couldnt finish it. Whatever reserves of energy I did have were spent up. I slept.

Night was painful, sleep did not come easily and I was in and out of consiousness too many times to have a restful slumber.