October 16th, 2025 - I will kill sickness forever. It will never rob me of another day in my life.

Now, while my victory comes at the preperation of a thousand others, I would still like to revel in it. Today's work day not only as a cook, but as a shift lead felt good. I might have stepped into the building a little later than usual, however I didn't let that take away from the good mood I woke up with. Whatever sickness I still have, I think I sweat 90% of it out last night. My sweat left a shadow of the demon that left. I came in with an attitude so chipper and cheerful it'd put a chipmunk to shame. I think I delegated well, I think I did well. Periodt. I was ready to really put in the work needed but the chicken was all already breaded, the eggplant parm need only to be put in the oven, the soup wasn't even made by me... What the hell did I even do??? Oh my god, I'm actually begining to space on what I did at work. I swear I did something beyond making an Alfredo, frying chicken and service.

Uhm, anyway, Mansur does not respect my authority. I asked him more than once to do something and it took going to Maher to actually get him to do it. I shouldn't have to rat out to my superiors, the problem shouldnt go to my boss or my bosses boss. If someone comes to me for something I should be able to resolve it without Tita. She shouldnt need to hand hold me still. It's just aggravating. And Drez being a competent worker is only making it worse lowkey, wild I know. The boy has middle child syndrome and now that we have this shiny new baby that can do everything he can and more? Ha! I don't see a solution in my future. I just wanted to say I did a good job at work today, I didn't even want to rant.

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Carpet Garden is releasing new music! YAYYYYYY!!!! I think the day I get back from Japan. Oh! On the topic of, I got a phonecall saying that my passport is being printed and mailed out. I, allegedly, should recieve it before we leave which is very cool because despite my bravado I really wanted to have a nice vacation and see Klarence and explore Japan and and and. I am very excited. Yahoo! Yippie! Rejoice noises Also the plane ride is 16+ hours and 3 layovers???? Thats wild, the most uncomfortable ride of my life on jah. I need to download so much content, bring so many books holy ish.

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My room is an absolute mess, a pigsty, a shithole. I need to clean, I think and hope and pray to be able to do it this weekend. I need to, oh God I need to. My sheets need to be changed, my laundry needs to be washed, my clothes need to be put away, my carpet needs to be swept, my figures need to be posed and put away.

I decided to continue watching Hazbin, the first episode didnt hook me in, neither did the second, neither did th- The fourth one really did it for me, and especially the fifth episode. I wasnt the biggest fan of these characters, of this world when we were first introduced, but with every passing minute, every second I feel escthatic to learn new things about this colourful (Theyre all red) cast of characters. At first I just went, "This is just Digital Circus in hell" How wrong I was the only things even remotely similar is JAX and Angel both being emotionaly closed off and overly aggresive to make people dislike them. It was also, and I didn't notice this yesterday when I was literally dying, but it's difficult to distinguish characters from the background. Everything follows the same colour scheme, and everything has varying shapes and- the character design and the setting feel like they're both in focus and they both look the same. They need to find a way to differentiate the two. I understand that Hell has a very obvious theme going on but if I'm watching a show and I cant tell if a character is talking or the couch? We have a problem. Besides that, I didnt realize it was a musical. That first episode hit me like a truck, because homegirl just started breaking out into song and my jaw dropped. Now im five eps deep and they throw two songs at you every episode. Thats wild. I liked the Angel and Husk song from episode 4, and I loved both of the ballads of episode five. Seeing Lucifer be deadbeat was very funny and I was thrilled to see the radio demon just rubbing it in Luci's face that hes a better father. Whahaha. Not for any personal reasons obviously. I should however, and this is unrelated, read and email my father. Completely unrelated by the way but this episode did bring me to tears. Anyway.