Monday December 1st, 2025 - Bouldering > School

AGGRHRHRHHRHR. Earlier in the day I was looking at Drez, working on my stuff, thinking about the weekend, about how much I’ve grown, how much I’ve accomplished, the life I built. It brought a genuine tear to my eye. Fast forwarding 12 hours later and I feel the need to pull out my hair. Can I tell you, I have not felt stress in… arguably months? Not real stress, not world shattering stress. I’ve been stressed out but it hasn’t been a lingering effect. Georgia continues to ask me about her assignment and it’s given me a debuff. Coming off a generational weekend my Monday is- it was good, I wanna point out it was a really good Monday; I would’ve written this entry with nothing but love if not for this assignment.

Every time I try to back out of doing it she doesn’t take no for an answer. I feel obligated to do something that isn’t mine. Mind you, I owe $520 to the Government, I don’t have that. I owe $900 to the bank, I don’t have that. Christmas is coming up and I need to come up with $100 worth of gifts, I don’t have that. Middeth’s birthday is this weekend and I’m going to show up empty handed. I have so much money problems right now and I have no time to fix it.

I haven’t worked on Dungeons in months, I haven’t created a cosplay in years, I’ve worked on 0 dioramas, my hobbies aren’t being touched at all. But I’m supposed to find time for this assignment. I GRADUATED, I HATE SCHOOL, I HATE IT SO MUCH, I AGGHHHHRHRHRHHRRH!!!

I can write 1,000 words on this bruh (the irony here being that the assignment is to write a 1,000 words on the form vs content of Dune or Parable of a Sower). I can’t talk about this anymore, I’m losing my mind.

Uhm- Monday. Monday. Work was nice, easy. Taste of Italy went down without a hitch, worked on some stuff for tomorrow. After work was the gym. Roy had texted me just as I was preparing to start working out so I decided cardio is where I would focus my efforts as opposed to any weight training. I walked / jogged for an hour and ran for 5 mins. I took an hour long shower after the gym and then drove to Up The Bloc.

I waited in the parking lot for Roy, a car pulled up beside mine. Ten minutes passed, Shabin called to pay me what he owes from the weekend. As I looked around I saw Roy in the car next to me… We had been sitting beside one another for minutes without noticing the other. I sent him a picture of himself and he said hi, I saw Denise in the car too.

We made our way in, and I was convinced to buy a months worth of climbing, it didn’t take a lot to convince me mind you. In earnest it was probably a mistake. I shouldn’t have bought the $90 pass, however! It would’ve been like $35 for a day. If I go more than 3 days it’s worth it. But uh- I really have no money right now.

Climbing was fun, not much to talk about here. I slammed my shin into the wall and I was out of energy so I was ready to bounce. I said bye to Roy and Denise and Ivy came in, I did my politeness and dipped. Georgia called me on the way to the car and the source of my stress returned.

This assignment will kill me, or the debt. I was feeling myself hard today, now I’m bleh. FAHHHH!!!! I FORGOT TO TEXT SARA AND RENEE. This- AGHHHHH!!! I HAVE NO TIME IN THIS LIFE TO FUCKING ENJOY IT!!! I MIGHT BE IN LOVE WITH THE MOMENTS OF PEACE AND FUN I GET BUT THE DOWNTIME??? WHERE IS IT???? AGRHHHH!!!!!

I’m genuinely so worried about the future now. Goodnight. - Dyl

—— Aside ——

Oh my god! I saw Andrew Chow (Chou?) from high school at rock climbing. That was such a trip. It was cool to see him, glad he’s well. I recognized him, but couldn’t tell which twin he was so I said my hi’s and bye’s and then immediately asked Roy which one he was. I don’t think that’s rude right? I prolly could’ve just asked Andrew. It’s chill.