May 14th, 2025 - Forget the Boy

Perhaps my thoughts cloud more than my mind. The weather as of late has been depressing. Was it my tears that brought the rain or did the grey clouds blot out my smile? A real chicken or the egg type beat.

 I spent 10 minutes ranting about "It wasn't bad" and how that doesn't make things good. My argument against myself ran in circles and eventually I grew tired of it, purging it from my mind.

 Today was a decent day, I cleaned my room! Then I mismanaged my time and didn't shower, so you win some you lose some. After that it was nice to unwind to Cyberpunk, I'm really really enjoying it. I caught myself using the games parlance in casual conversation during the day and had to remind myself people don't talk like that. The last time that happened, I was stealing words from Robin when Young Justice (TV 2010) first released.

 As I played, I could feel my table shake, I searched for the cause and found my phone crying out for help. My brother sent message after message to me and our family chat. "Are you picking me up?" If I were a parent I could only imagine how haunting those words are. I texted him, telling him how no one had told me to pick him up but that I would if necessary. I called my mom, the phone rang too many times and I checked Find my Friends, she was in the house. I walked to her room, her answering machine on my phone. She laid in her bed relaxed and content, a loving smile as I walked in. She puzzled me about who was on the phone and I told her it was her. When she asked why, it only took my brother's name for her to leap out of bed with a speed that could put The Flash to shame. We sprinted out of the house to pick up my brother from black belt training.

 He didn't seem overly upset, she bought him Wendys as an apology and the two of us headed into No Frills to pick up a drink for my sister. It was a simple task really, and yet we complicated things by leaving the store with 6 boxes of Melona in hand. We loaded the car and went home. I went back to the game, I should've showered, and played until 9:30. From there I worked on the website, which I recently purchased a domain name for! DylbyDay.ca is official!!!

The Superman trailer dropped. I am unsteady. When the teaser dropped I was filled with nothing but hope, yet now I hold doubt. I can see that this Clark Kent is flawed, he is hardly proficient at combat and he is completely headstrong. I think I'll watch it a couple of more times and find the things I like outweigh my doubts. My Mezco Superman smiles at me and reminds me of a better tomorrow.

 Up, up and away, for truth, justice and a better tomorrow!

- Dyl