July 5th, 2025 - Alberta pt4 - Journeys End

Bro. I’m writing the journals and I’m so drunk what the hell- I can’t feel my face.

I’m about to finish Deli Boys, two Pakistani brothers take over their father’s drug business after his death. It’s fun, I’m very much enjoying it.

We checked out of the hotel and returned our rental cars and- AGHHHHH!! Ahem- sorry remembrance damage… I embarrassed myself in front of the ONLY brown baddie. She had reddish hair. I pulled up too far in the rental and almost had the gate slam into it. I wanna die.

Whatever- freak it we ball. We’re at the airport now and I am- drunked!! Two tequila smashes in and I can’t feel my face. :s

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I finished Deli Boys, I started The Bear S4. I wept at both. On the plane I read some Death of Superman and watched some LGH.

—- 1 Edmonton to Toronto Flight later ——

It stretches forever, as far as I can see, I see the city. I missed it, a trillion lights farther than my mind can comprehend. Every one a story. I missed it. Stability, home, my bed, my cat, my car. I missed my life, the one I’ve carved out for myself, fought for, cried over and bled for. I missed the streets I’ve embedded into memory, every thing that has made me, me is here. All the moments of love and hate have happened here. One good moment in Vancouver, a moment I will always remember.

But I’m home. I know I’ve hated this place more times than I can count but… at the end of the day it’s home. I’m happy to be here. If this is life, it’s not so bad.

I will miss the mountains, the ocean and its breeze. I will miss the blue sky and all the emerald greens. I will miss Vancouver from its plains, to its trees. I will miss Alberta for its cowboys, its stampedes. But home is calling, I answer its pleas. Hello Toronto, I’m home now, at ease.

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They clapped on the flight. I said “that’s some white people shit” a little too loud. Logan and I are laughing about it. Bro read my entry, put his hand on my shoulder and said “I missed it too” bruh.

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I’m home. I hugged Kaya before I got in. Kimchi didn’t even know me. He just stared at me with big eyes. When I tried to pet him on my bed he bit me. I think he’s angry I was gone.

I uh- I put everything away. I didn’t miss this part. This house. I thought coming home to my room would be this soul fulfilling thing, like a piece of me was missing but when I got in I was just angry. The place was a mess. I had to clean my bed, my carpet, my desk. Everything was dutty. I need to leave, carve a new place for myself. One that is uniquely me. Something I am wholly. That’s what my car is, that’s why I missed it. But my room is not the sanctuary I thought it was.

I’ll probably play Claire Obscur, that I truly missed. Also, I think my revoltech Flash came in. I’ll unbox it when I wake up, along with Sango and Scarecrow.