July 22nd, 2025 - Evading the law

Cass is wasian, it just clicked right now. I was signing into work wifi as Cass and I was like, “hmm, I wonder why I gravitate towards her.” Maybe if I was a girl I’d be like her- wait a second. And she’s me! (If I were a trained killer from birth, and incredibly smart, a born hero, more Chinese than anything)

I like work. Too much so, but that’s not the point. I like where I am at work. I don’t want to do anyone else’s job, I like cooking. It’s- it’s good. I feel good. Accomplished. I had lobster for lunch.

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Ugh, this kid is killing me. Logan can’t fucking come shopping. We agreed on today and now he’s going to the batting cages. Whatever. I have time to myself.

And I used it wisely! I finally figured out Ibis Paint! I got around to editing the first batch of Vancouver pictures. They came out okay, I didn’t really have a good vision of what I wanted to do so it came out more collage like than I would’ve wanted but it’s fine. This is me easing back into things.

I started Adults. It’s really good, it’s got the white guy I like from Tik tok and the brown Shawty I like from Deli Boys. The cast is stacked, CHARLIE COX???? Wild. Anyway, it’s funny and fresh and it makes me feel insecure. :(

I’m not living the same 20s that they are. They’re living the 20s I want. A communal living with hot ppl and they’re banging and they’re laughing and joking and having fun and they’re gay and they’re so- they’re living. They’re living. I miss that.

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I BOUGHT WATERPARKS / CHLOE TICKETS!!! LIFE IS GOOOODDDDD

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Also I keep avoiding the pig. He keeps texting me and calling me and I’m putting it off. I just- doesn’t this shmuck know how much I got going on? (Nothing) I have to text him back soon as annoying as it is.

The same with my father. He replied to my email but I haven’t had the strength to read it as of late. I just- I’m putting things off I shouldn’t.

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It’s 11:30. Im posting this and I feel exhausted. I’m going to die tomorrow, I’m so tired.