July 21st, 2025 - Tanned / Drama

I need to be creative again, I see the flaw in my plan to dullard my brain. I haven’t created anything in so long; I get home and I just want to stop existing. My brain hurts from being alive, but my soul hurts from not living.

AGHHHHHH!!!!! Waterparks is going on tour!!!! WITH CHLOE MORIONDO!!!! AGHHHHH!!!! Life is good. God gave this to me.

The weather is nice today! Work is less nice. The amount of mf drama happening, how many hushed conversations. I just- I just wanna stay in my lane and do my work. Instead I need to mitigate and get blamed and rat and- AHHHH.

It’s chill, I’m chill.

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I was supposed to work out, but the weather was too nice. I drove home and went for a walk with my mom. I was supposed to go back out for another walk but I laid on the floor and got too tired.

I look pretty good despite my weight. My skin, for the first time in my life decided to tan instead of burn. I’m darker than Frey, almost the same colour as my mom. It feels- I feel- good, powerful, complete.