July 1st, 2025 - Vancouver pt6 Out of the city

Gang. I’m tired, physically drained. I didn’t expect so much… so much! I feel I haven’t truly had time to breathe. The train never slows, we’re always heading forward. Ever onward towards the next stop.

We left the Airbnb this morning, pushing each other out the door before ten. The cleaners; yes the cleaners, bc mfs are so rich they don’t even clean their house themselves. (Fuck you) The cleaners came as we were leaving. From there it was a long ahh drive to the Market. Thankfully I didn’t have to do it. Tito Arni took the wheel as I was able to actually turn my brain off. I worked on clearing out my camera roll both on the Cannon and my phone.

Once we got to the market it was an arduous process to get the kids settled so we could actually walk around. We only had an hour and it came and went faster than ???. I bought a foam dagger (that Logan keeps taking?) and my mother bought me fresh blueberries. I’m not one to appreciate high priced, organic, pesticide free blah blah blah. But these lil guys were gargantuan in nature, their taste was sweet and refreshing. Every now and then I’d be hit by the occasional sour berry but overall they were good.

Tito Arni drove us to the beach. Our last hurrah in Vancouver was not a dismal whimper into the night. Nico, Logan, Freya and I enjoyed the Pacific Ocean. Cyprus mountain towered over us across the bay. North Vancouver to our right. It was so cool, when mfs say to touch grass please drag me to an ocean. The water cures me, it ails me of my sins and washes me anew. I loved every grain of sand that found itself beneath my feet. Every bit of water that bathed me, the freshness of the air. Vancouver is not an easy place to navigate but it is beautiful.

We lost X, like? He just kinda dipped for a long minute; after we finally found the guy we switched our style. I drove to Kamloops. Three hours of open road, finally a chance to stretch my legs, an opportunity to drive, properly drive. None of this stop and go shit. Just acceleration, pure bliss. The shit was long, I had thought I’d have more opportunities to read, I was wrong. Tito Arni was trying to freeze me to death. He insisted we blast the AC because he can’t feel anything, meanwhile my teeth clatter and my skin turns blue.

We’re at the hotel, I’m tired. My family wants to hang but I haven’t a thing to give. I’m just tired. Don’t mistake my annoyance for having a bad time, life is greater than good. Just- tired.

Also the sun rocked my shit. The entirety of my back is blush red. I detest this skin I was given, this white curse I bear. God knew I’d be too powerful with melanin. 💀

— addendum —

Back to the beach, tide was so low. I’ve never walked across a receded ocean floor for so long  to get to the actual water. As we walked we passed droves of dead crabs washed ashore. Unsure if they were dead on arrival or if the sun bore into them until they were no more. The sea birds ate all the same.

Nico and I played with marine life. We dug ourselves into the sand until the marine life decided it wanted to play with us. Our ankles were sunk into the earth as the tide ate at our thighs. A weird worm like creature slithered though the water towards us. My scream could shatter glass, I clawed and dug myself out of my own hole, I fought with every fibre and launched myself from the sand, barely escaping the clutches of the evil parasite.

I wish I saw Nene more, she agreed and told me to take a solo trip.

With all the love in the world, - Dyl