July 17th, 2025 - Hidden Inventory / Prema Death

I woke up, thinking it was Friday; a devastating blow to my brain to find out that today would not be an easier one. I only slept through two alarms as the excitement for the what would happen later in the day made me wake up. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes, and as I washed my face.

Getting to work was easy and fortunately once I was there, I realize I did not have my pass on me. Thankfully Jen had gotten there around the same time. She and I walked together, she actually asked me how I was. I told her it was OK I forgot to ask. was. I wish I was closer to Jen, and I know that it’s nobody’s fault but my own. She’s kind, she’s nice, she’s down to earth. I think I still have a barrier. it’s a break when it comes to talking to women at least I actually feel comfortable and able to talk to her. It’s just that sometimes I do hold myself back.

There was a weird tension in the air. It’s been like that all week so far and it’s only gotten thicker. Our Bosch continues to poke and prod at a dormant beast. I do not know what will happen. I do not know what will come of your actions.

I made a soup that was a little too heavy on the herbs and spices but otherwise pretty OK. I made a vegetarian dish that was all right although I did not buy enough jackfruit yesterday. Around 1030. It was time for me to head outside and start grilling up some ribs, I really had no idea what I was doing when I started, but once I got into a good flow of things after I had experimented with the sauces and the temperature and everything else, I really had something good going. The ribs are delicious man. I took some home. I gave them to Roy. They are phenomenal. I’m very proud of myself. It’s actually funny that it is a collaborative effort these ribs.

I went to the gym after work. I didn’t have very much energy to actually do anything at the gym. I got a nice not pre-workout, but that thing called. I got a nice warm-up in before Roy showed up and I kind of lost all steam after that, I took a shower and then we headed back upstairs so we could eat our dinner ribs. He asked me about hinge and I told him I wasn’t really checking the apps right now. I’ve not been busy, but I have been focussed on other things. I have a life to rebuild. I told him he kind of laughed at me. I told him not necessarily rebuild, but I’m picking up the pieces of where I left off a couple years ago.

We talked for a bit longer. We scrolled on our phones and then we headed to the theater. Am. Faxed. I should’ve worn show man I knew it. I felt it in my bones and I didn’t do it. I wore what I thought it was a pretty good fit at least for me, but I should’ve worn chose so I absolutely should’ve because half of the motherfuckers in the theatre were wearing cosplay and they were all baddies not a single show so insight mind you he’s not in the movie but Neither is Maki and I saw a Maki cosplayer dog. I think jujutsu Kaisen cosplayers are so fine and for what I think it’s I think I think it’s Gojo. I think Gojo is the answer because he is fine and so he using his technique holes buddies towards him. I need a cosmic battery is what this is coming to Also also, I cried at the at the theatre because I really like that ark for JJK it is absolutely one of my favourites and seeing it again really really helps me understand Gojo and ghetto better but also I just I draw so many comparisons in parallels to my own life and it’s so personal to me When this art came out I was maybe 2322 and things were such a high point for me in my life

Roy and I talked after the movie we had our cars parked beside one another so we leaned on our cars as we spoke. I realized he is the Jiraiya to my Naruto. It was a good talk. I think I missed having late nights talking to people there’s not a lot and definitely not enough of those in my life right now.

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At some point we called it and I headed to Etobicoke to grab mama. It was late. Eleven in the evening I’m driving mama around to banks trying to loan shark for my mom. Mamas card wasn’t working at the machine and I had to head back to Foch empty handed. Surely my knees would have to suffer. Mama handed me a cheque for her share of the loan and I have her, her passport and a kiss on the cheek. Of the three people in my life who mean more than the world I hope she knows that I love her beyond meaning.

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I don’t want to work tomorrow. The night is so perfect. The weather is cool and cloudy, the breeze is just cold enough to feel good on bare skin, and just warm enough to not freeze. I want to go skateboarding. I wanna- I wanna feel it. I wanna run to someone’s apartment and bring them flowers in this weather. This is romance or friendship weather. It’s adventure weather. The kind where you’d make a lifetime moment. And I’m going to bed.