July 16th, 2025 - New Jeans / Supershy

I woke up with a brain! My head screwed on, no snoozes on my alarm. I had the energy drink beside my water, cracked it open first thing in the morning. I am awake. It’s 7:40 as I’m walking into work, I get 3 smiles and a side eye.

I don’t have the stomach for hatred, it isn’t in me to be inherently evil; Purposely maleficent. When I overheard some shit about me I didn’t act petty. I complained a little because it’s annoying to constantly hear nagging but in place of pettiness I was ready to help. Real superman big man tings. But my boss. My boss would rather get a get back that isn’t hers over mediate. Kindness and compassion should be over everything. So now when I go back to do my job, the snide remarks are doubled. I am filled with guilt. I’m an innocent man and I feel guilt. My displeasure with my Tita subsides after lunch, that uneasy feeling in my stomach rests after some glizzy gobbling.

I- I’m using insta again. It feels good! Not like- not the media addiction but the social part. To talk to people I love, to interact again. I turned on notifications for insta on Monday and the seeds of that action are beginning to sprout. I can see flowers in my future.

After texting and eating our boss wanted to do a tik tok, I protested in voice only. My body moved on its own. It was fun, we got everyone (not that person) in on it and were all laughing and smiling. A good day.

The rest of the work day was fast, I genuinely think that worked as a team building exercise. We all had each others back better than ever, even if it was just cleaning. It’s crazy what happens when you fw the people you need to see everyday. I’m being petty. I’m subtweeting a mf who will never read these.

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I- perhaps I shouldn’t write this but do you know that scene in The Wolf of Wallstreet where DiCaprio is biting his knuckles as Margot Robbie is looking gorjuz? I had that moment in my head; work has baddies, I saw one of them today. GADDAMN, dawg this woman is fine as hell, on Jah. Face card never declines, waist where? And the Gyatt is crazy. Forgive me, I shan’t ever speak about a woman again. I just had to share that people be fucking bad as fuck. People be baddies.

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I’m at Square! I had that impulse feeling and drove here. I gotta pee. BITCH!! I do NOT have money, Tf am I doing at a mall??? I went to my usual haunts, Uniqlo, Indigo, Hot Topic, Urban Planet, Zara, Urban Outfitters. The latter made me realize I didn’t have cash money to spend. I was looking at all the vinyl records I wanted, GNX, Three Cheers, Beautiful Chaos, Princess of Power. I checked my bank account to see what I could afford. Girl, tell me why I couldn’t afford the air I was breathing. I put my shit BACK, and walked out the store.

I walked in and out of Zara, I didn’t even check prices I knew I couldn’t buy anything. Hot Topic was fun to go into but I hate that spot. They’re so damned crowded you have no room to actually shop, I genuinely think they’d drive more business if they had a bigger store. I looked for the Superman merch they only had Justice Gang jacket, ugly and eventually irrelevant. It’s probably for the best, if they had the superman sweater I would’ve bought it and I shouldn’t. I looked for JJK merch but all the Gojo shirts were made for the female Gaze and the only Choso shirt was XXL so…

Urban Planet was a surprise, they had $15 cargos, like the one Nico has. I was so close to picking up but I found other pants I like in the back. Monochrome camo joggers with a tech wear touch, I hope I like them; I didn’t try them on so I don’t know what they look like on me. I picked up 4 books at indigo, I bought one. Nightwing my Dan Watters. I’m super excited, I’ve only heard good things.

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In the car I had a nice lil phone call with mark; I had texted him about a… common denominator. It was a nice talk, I think- when I was younger I really pushed back on the idea that the people from work could be my friends but as I age- I’m not saying I’m old I’m just saying I think I matured and it isn’t such a strange thing to think of them as my friends.

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I played Lego Fortnite at home while finishing Ironheart. Uhhhh, Twas aight. I think the first half was better, the latter kinda falls off? I dunno. It feels very laser focused in the beginning with Riri, and as we drift from her story into The Hoods it feels messy, disconjointed, unwell. After Ironheart I queued up The Bear. I’m at Tiffs wedding, cute episode, it’s nice to have a break from the restaurant and see the characters be people. Humanizes them, grounds them, I wept when we got the Francine Natalie reveal. To know that they were best friends, to see them bitter rivals only to make up? Shit had me tearing up. I’ve been seeing a pattern recently. Between this and Kevin’s Abstracts Blush? Hrmnnn. Superman giving me hope maybe I shouldn’t have.

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I like my Instagram. It’s nice to reflect on my life. I just wish I did more recently, but I haven’t been alive. It’s cool to track my process. To see what I was thinking in those captured moments of time. It’s more than the photos it’s the editing and the captions. Who was I when I posted that? You can see it plain as day, who, what my influences were. What I was watching at the time. It’s neat.

James asked about him, Shy and the baby. I’ll have to work that into the AirBnb, I don’t think it should be too hard. I just hope we’re not too loud for da baby.

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Oh! I took fun lil pictures in my car today. I haven’t actually edited shit in a minute so it was cool to like, photoshop something? I got a photoshop mix replacement and I was testing it today. I’ve got a pic where there’s two of me in the same shot, so I think I should be able to edit my vacation pictures with it. We’ll see.

I’m gonna read the Nightwing now, here’s to good friends, good food and a better tomorrow. - Dyl