January 5th & 6th, 2025 - From the Screen / I'll Create If It Kills Me

// January 5th, 2026 // - From the Screen

I think we exist at such an interesting and important time in life where we have complete and utter access to creating art. It is one of the easiest things to do in this modern era. Documentation of life is the norm not the exception. Everyone is constantly taking snapshots of who they are at the very moment they take the picture. At any given point we are constantly having the ability to look back on who we once were. Whether that be a second, a minute, or for me, eleven years ago. It’s such a beautiful wonderful terrifying thing.

I’m watching videos of Klarence that he’s uploaded but I “haven’t had the time” to watch. It’s so interesting to see things in a new light. I see the place, Kumamoto, where he purchased the tie I now own. In the moment he gave it to me it was special because it was from him, now watching the journey he went on to get it. It’s special in an entirely new aspect. I can see the effort that went into it, the story behind it. This is a whole year ago… I’m looking at who he used to be. It’s so cool.

// January 6th, 2025 // - I'll Create If It Kills Me

I talked to him yesterday! What a world of coincidence where I'm watching his videos and he's on a call with our friends. I didn't bring it up in conversation, I didn't think it was pertinent and I figured It'd come up naturally later. I didn't get a chance to watch any more videos after I joined the call. That was the end of the day really.

As for today, my arms hurt. This new year hasn't changed me, nor my surroundings. I'm a little scared. Everyday I age and everyday I am increasingly worried I won't do what I was put on this Earth to do. I've been saying this since I was 18... God. A decade with nothing to show for.

Uhm- Forgive the miniature tangent I was trying to say that despite my sore limbs I don't think I'm going as hard in the gym as I can be. I really truly need to change. I think I succeeded last year. If 24 was breaking me down and 25 was rebuilding me up I hope (I can do so much more than that, I hold all of the power) 26 is the beginning of my dreams. Stack bread, find out what love is, make art.

I don't have anything to say. Not really. Just... just watch. I hope to make you proud.

• Dyl