January 10th - 12th, 2026 - The Days

// January 10th, 2026 // - Today was a Good Day

(Written on January 15th, 2026)

It was a good day! I was out for nearly 12 hours just hanging out with friends. It was just- nice! Martin picked me up first and then we scooped up Ryan and Drez then met up with Dave and Middeth at Dixie Mall. I never realized just how Pinoy the place was. I picked up Halo Halo, empanada and pandesal. We just talked at our table for at least an hour before heading to Gotham. We dropped another hour and a half at Gotham again just yapping and cracking packs. "Who knew the hard times were the good ol' days". It felt just like that. Like I was looking at a facsimile of a memory. How surreal. We stopped by LVL UP Games just to check it out and then went for Dinner at Takumi. I have no other words than it was nice!

What wasn't nice was me dropping my phone outside Martin's car and not realizing it. My poor thing was out there in the snow for 2 maybe 3 hours... My shit was only kind of wet when I picked it up off the floor. I figured it was fine, I was naive. I plugged it in when I got home.

// January 11th, 2026 // - Today was not a day

(Written on January 15th, 2026)

And yet when I awoke it wasn't charged. I didn't think anything of it. I figured the charger was at fault. I cleaned my room, tidying up and doing my laundry. Finally my sheets changed!! Inbetween loads was spent on Fallout 4. It was only at night did I notice my phone screen flickering. I planned to put it in rice when I got to work the next day

// January 12th, 2026 // - Today was a day

(Written on January 15th, 2026)

My phone stopped working as work finished. I headed straight to Erin Mills. Mobile Klinic could do nothing for me, the brown guy down the next hallway however... Just under 300 bones later and I no longer have busted phone. All of this could have been avoided by me needing my phone on me at all times. Fuck. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck. That is so much money I don't have. I HATE spending money on fixing things. There shouldn't be a crack in my windshield, my alignment shouldn't have been thrown off, I shouldn't need to fix my fillings, and my phone screen shouldn't need replacing!!!! OR MY PHONE!!! JUST!!!! I wish! I wish I was rich. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck.

I wanted to look at pretty women before bed. I mean that in the most sincere and non creepy way possible. Hinge. I was on hinge trying once more to find the love of my life. One woman, Gaja, stood out in the sense that all of her answers were drawn out and thoughtful. Her pictures… I can’t remember a single one. I just recall that she was a animanga nerd and I thought that was too easy to talk about. I wanted to challenge myself to her other prompts and saw she had one about a YouTube video. About how “compatibility directly relates to specificity” I’m paraphrasing but I was curious as to what that meant. I should’ve just asked her. Instead I watched the video, I was ready and prepared to talk to her about it. I thought watching a 10 minute video that she recommended would put me ahead. I went back to Hinge, she was gone. Hinge had deleted her from my phone. Now I know that a beautiful woman who knows what she wants is out there and I have no idea how to find her…

I spent the next 30 minutes scrolling, rejecting near every angel that popped up on my screen. Hinge would not give her back to me. I- AGGHHHH!!! I want to rip flesh from bone!!! She came back, the Algorithm gave her to me but I was out of likes. Who am I to deny love a little coin? I make the purchase against my own best judgement and Lo and behold, HINGE RIPS HER AWAY FROM ME!!!! Okay… I bought three roses. I refused to use any until I found her again but maybe that’s not the point. Maybe I only needed to really like her and her mindset to then change what I wanted out of the dating app to then better myself and really give the most authentic version of me to whomever I try to court…

All this to say I spent my roses. I don’t even remember the first, but the second was a brown woman who cosplayed Raven, and enjoyed talking about Batman. I think I’m too tired. I need to sleep.