September 4th - 7th, 2025 - Blue Mountain

Thursday

• Martin, Ryan, I after work last minute shopping

• Dinner at pho

• Lou wants to set me up with her friend

• Fine Mexican shyt texting me while we’re out

Friday: - work half day

• took forever to pack

• pick up wuggy

• get to shabin

• kenneth shrooms

• forgot bacon

• get to Blue

• forgot power cable, forgot camera

• get martin and ryan to pick up camera

• hot tub, phone

• walmart bow

• firewood

• wrestle Shabin like 3 times

• Wrestle James

• drinking game

• relax

• up late

Saturday

• make breakfast with james and shabin and Ry

• superman

• bow and arrow backyard

• walk to village

• raised the price from 60 to 100

• try to go on hike, olf fuck denies us

• I am seething

• I am rage

• LCBO doesnt have dragon stout bc Blue hates black ppl

• do nothing for like 30 minutes

• phone is not doing well

• walk back home

• phone is gone

• start making dinner

• delegate delegate delegate

• last supper

• start partying

• drinking game

• double or nothing, triple or nothing against James, quad or nothing against Martin

• cut myself off after arm wrestle with Drez

• Drizzy and I drunk asf

• I end up downstairs puking

• Worried im finna die alone here

• friends pull up and walk me through it

• get upstairs drunk again with Drez

• make it outside

• spill my guts then spill

• my guts

• All my friends except Drizzy there to hear it

• Everyone understands completely my side of the story

• I am weeping, akin to the scene in Naruto with the popsicle

• My voice is a shadow of itself

• My shoulders shudder with every breath

• I am bawling

• I cant see them, I feel like its a confessional

• I get everything out, every last thing. Down to Shabin and Yeca, down to Matthew L and Dennis, down to Martin and Ryan. All of it

• Im clean

• I am forgiven, I am welcomed in with open arms

• Im pretty sober at this point

• we watch Annabelle creations to end the night

Sunday

• THESE MFS WILL NOT LEAVE THE HOUSE

• I call my mom on RyLius phone

• AND SOMEONE BROKE THE MF LIGHTSWITCH

• I HAVE EMAILS FROM AIRBNB I CANNOT CHECK

• we say goodbye to our home, we say goodbye to Martin and Ry, to Shy, Keira, Laylani and James.

• The rest of us head to the mountain, but decide to run the scenic caves instead. A ten minute drive takes us to a place that looks more promising than Blue.

• Middeth cant do hike bc shoes, we run walmart and buy ponchos

• We play mini golf in the rain

• We go hiking

• My mom calls Raj

• I tell her I love her, that I'm sorry, I miss her

• The hike persists

• we finish and head to Brampton for dinner

• Indian place, Drez ponytail kink

• Dave

• Wuggy talk

• Im home I love my mom

I don’t think I need to summarize bar for bar my thoughts on every individual thing that went down. Just- let me say that Blue Mountain was something I am so happy and delighted that it came true. Where I wish a couple of things happened differently, a couple more people came, I am so overjoyed that it happened at all.

To see my friends again after a years hiatus, to see Matthew L and his journey, to meet Laylani for the first time, seeing Drez and Martin and Ryan. All of Ball Squad and Raj, I can understand that this is a good life. I hope to see them again soon.

While I certainly enjoyed every aspect of the trip, my favourite part was getting drunk on that Saturday. Being able to let loose and have fun, not care, be taken care of even. Did I go a little too hard? Maybe, certainly. But I don’t think that ruined the night, and when I came down from my drunken stupor, when I threw everything to the wind (and I mean everything). I confessed everything I had to say and it was one of the most cathartic moments of my life, one of the most freeing, I truly genuinely feel lighter, like my soul isn’t held down by the sins of my past. I can’t recall who asked me about Dennis but I’ve never been more honest than when I said “I love Dennis, I wish nothing but the greatest life for him, nothing but the best. But I- Never, never! Want to see him again. I wish him so much love, but I never wanna see him again.”