December 8th - 11th, 2025 - Sick Week!!

// December 8th, 2025 //

(Written on December 12th, 2025)

Today was shit, I felt like trash. I wanted to call in but Drez beat me to it. I was so insanely over exerted by the end of the day, I got home and knocked out.

// December 9th, 2025 //

(Written on December 12th, 2025)

Didn’t go in, way too sick. My mom took care of me, I love her with my entire heart. I hope she knows. I let the day slip by, wasted in my fingers. Every moment is precious save for the sick days I guess.

// December 10th, 2025 //

(Written on December 12th, 2025)

Driving was garbage, people pissed me off the entire day whether that be going to work or Brampton or back home.

Ramen day, yaaayyy!!!! I didn’t really know what to do in the morning, Liz came in just to set up her station and then dipped. I hoped I didn’t get her sick, it was more likely that I did but that’s my greatest fear. I know what it is to be sick, the last thing I want is for her to get it.

I made the beef and Veggie broth then served all day. Again- I think I was over exerted. They left me to my own devices on the line but I’m only at half strength. I needed a sit down. We took our lunch for ramen and it was delicious!! So good!! Very very proud of what we created for sure.

I drove to Brampton to give Drez his ramen and some Tylenol hoping for him to get better. He said he’d see me tomorrow.

I got home and started making ramen for my mom, I was holding Kimi and my nose started bleeding. I was dying. I got the soup to my mom and knocked out. I was trying to watch Percy Jackson but I was way too tired. Despite that when I actually tried to sleep I tossed and turned all night.

// Addendum //

I saw two of the most beautiful gorgeous sweet baby girl angel women at work. It was an honour to serve them. I had my mask on when I served, they were say at the table next to us when we ate, I had to pull out the Mansur and rip my hat off. OOOHHHHH-! Sick? Sick of looking so good, gahdamn. It didn’t work, they ignored me. :s Goodbye beautiful gorgeous sweet baby girl angel women. T~T

// December 11th, 2025 //

Work was taxing and incredibly busy, it was the town hall. This sickness won’t fall or falter, it chokes me with every breath. I uh- I also shit myself… T~T IF YOURE A BADDIE YOU DIDNT READ THAT!!! ALSO THIS SICKNESS IS GIVING ME FOREHEAD ACNE!!! WAGHHHHH!!!

// Aside //

We live in a dystopia. Dependant on where you live you may not see it; the blue skies and rolling green hills might be blocking your view but if you squint your eyes you’ll see it. That flicker in the waveform. You blink. There are no blue skies, there are no green hills, they couldn’t even give you a real window. All you see are screen. 24 hours a day, seven days a week. And near nothing on those screens are real. Half of the things I’m shown in recent weeks is artificially generated. I was trying to look at “action figure customs” to see what the human mind has created. Fuck. You. A.I. slop as far as I could see. This technology was supposed to assist us not take over.

I crave nothing more in this life than to create, but God kill me if I ever generate a prompt in place of picking up the pen.

Billionaires continue to destroy the planet, war is ongoing, the two most well known genocides still persist, families are still ripped apart by ICE, and everyone is too tired to do something or too stupid to see it’s happening.

Drew Goodens video on AI, And Billionaires is so terrifying. I went to watch JJK Execution and Coca-Cola dead ass had a whole A.I Ad. YOU ARE A BILLION DOLLAR COMPANY, YOU CAN AFFORD TO PAY PEOPLE TO MAKE AN AD. Amazon dropped Banana Fish dub and used A.I for voice actors. As if there aren’t a billion people dying for a chance like that.

It’s just disgusting and disappointing that there is no higher power than money and greed. And there is no one on earth to hold these monster responsible. I will stand by that if you own more than half a million dollars you’re not human anymore. The law can’t even stop these people, because money buys power. Even if, EVEN IF! You had all the right people to stop these monsters, everyone has someone they care about… Money buys power.

I’m just so tired.

On a brighter note, I’ve wanted to pick up where I left off on CMC and Battery City. This hellscape has opened up new ideas for battery, and I just like the idea of being creative with CMC again. Though, like all things I want, will I actually do them? God I hope so.

I’m just so tired.