August 28th, 2025 - Boy Date with friends!!

Do you know that scene in Daredevil S2, Matt and Elektra are attacked by a member of the hand. They’re in an intimate moment where Elektra is professing how she wants to be better, when their assailant jumps from the shadows. The trio scuffle for a moment before Matt subdues the hand and unmasks him. “You’re just a kid.” He exclaims. He can see fear in the other man’s eyes, he can see his inexperience, his youth. What happens after isn’t important to this anecdote.

That moment captures how I felt today. I saw the same inexperience that same youthfulness in our newest member of our staff when it came time to talk to him. I felt for him, he seemed, scared isn’t the word but I know I would be in his shoes. To have two members of authority pull me aside to tell me what I was doing wrong. It’s scary, all you can do is nod your head and agree. I- I know I spoke about him with venom last time I wrote but he’s just a kid. I can’t in good conscience condone hating on him. I know he might seem a bacteria to our bloodstream but maybe he is trying. There’s that kindness again. The one that looks like a weakness. My desire to believe that everyone is good. :(

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I think the last time I was in this pizza pizza I wasn’t yet dating my previous partner. I’m not only in a completely different place in life. I’m not even the same man. A good majority of my life hasn’t even happened yet. The traumas and experiences that have shaped me weren’t even beginning to be set in motion.

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The day is good. I had an okay day at work that directly led into a nice lil gym session. After that I went home to change for my boy date with my friends. I scooped L after pizza pizza and we had the same idea. We both brought food. Rajvir beat us to shabins place by a minute or two. We unloaded my car and then inside we unloaded our thoughts.

I got home around 230.