August 16th, 2025 - Im a monster of a man

Nooooooo! Wallahi! My goat is washed! How??! How could this happen, the day slipped through my grasp. It was supposed to be good! Not great, but good! I can’t even blame the nap, it was already 130 by the time I knocked out.

I started the morning with writing postcards to Nene and Karence, then I sat on the couch to read Absolute Batman; I started my laundry… WHERE DID THE DAY GO???

It’s 430 now. I’m waiting for my pants to dry so I can head to streetsville and investigate their selection of vintage Nightwing comics. I finished folding my clothes. I watched the latest Dandadan, MDUP and Game Changer while cutting out images from the DC Connects. I organized my comics and put them away in the longbox. I organized my summer playlist and put the songs where in the other playlists they belong in. I cleared the fridge of all the food I brought home. It was a semi productive afternoon.

The evening I dreaded however, I threw my phone away. I could hear the vibration shake my whole room like the golden arm scratches at the closet. I hear the ringtone as if it were the whispers of the dead. Dread it, run from it, Destiny arrives all the same. I hid from it today; I was not an adult. Shame and guilt eat away at me. I need to shower, to wash myself. I need to go for a walk. I can never look at my phone again, never face the betrayal I have caused. I think Roy came to my home, parked across the street and called me, offering a hand. I think I slapped it away and spat in his face. I must apologize, I must, I must. Will I? I didn't want to go, not since the woman dropped out, surely I could have just said that. Not waste his gas, his time. I'm sorry Roy.

The shower didnt cleanse me, everry droplet of water showed me my dark reflection. I'm a monster among men. He was so excited for this. We went shopping for his outfits, he spoke about it everyday. He probably came here so joyous for us. RAGHHHHHRRR

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I got back into The Amazing Digital Circus. Shit's goated. I didnt realize how long ago it came out. I'm on episode 3 and every episode so far has made me cry. A good memory can last a lifetime. Sometimes you find peak in the most iunlikely of places. This show, it's so well balanced. It's humour is unmatched, creativity is off the charts, the characters are the realest I've never met. The whole thing exudes passion. Passion for the story, for the characters, for the- everything, for the project itself. It is so good to be able sto see yourself in all the characters, it humanizes them in ways I haven't seen before.